Hey Tayla and Russell - here is my testimonial.

I sought out this program because I finally recognized, after being found out again by my wife, that I no longer had any control of my urges and my life. And I needed help to save my marriage, and more importantly, myself. My life was a total mess.

The program, with how it was set up with the curriculum and the meetings, helped open my eyes about myself, my addiction, and how I wasn't suffering through the shame by myself. Through reflection and support and working the curriculum, I was able find the help and inner strength to work on breaking this addiction. At the end of the program, I had been 9 months sober and I am currently almost 10 months sober.

I have become much more in the present, self-aware, and definitely more sympathetic and open and available to my wife. I had wasted a lot of years lying and hiding in shame, and the program has definitely helped me become a better and more emotionally available person.

I would definitely recommend this program to others who are suffering from the emotional torment of sex/porn addiction. The guidance, work and support you get from Russell and other men in the group suffering from the same issues is invaluable. It's not easy, but if you dedicate yourself into ridding yourself of this addiction and work the program to the best of your availability, at some point you might find the aha moment that will help you realize you can be helped. It will take continued day to day reflection and work to keep everything going well, but you will now have the tools to help guide you along.

Per Russell's request, posting that I hit 6 months sexual sobriety today! May be the longest I've had in 30 years. This program has been a saving factor for me. To all the new guys and even those who have been in the program for a while, there is hope!! I was at the end of my rope with both the addiction and my relationship, but today my head is much freer, I'm not carrying as much stress, and my relationship with my wife is going very well. 6 months ago, I couldn't come close to saying that and I felt like a huge failure. Work the program, take things day by day, and I wish you all the best in your recovery. I know I'm not "cured" and that this will be a lifelong battle, but things are certainly looking up.

Officially completed the 12 week program! On to the continuation program. To all the new guys ... things are going to seem hard and maybe a little hopeless at first - we have all been there - but hang in there. You will find out a lot of things about yourself in the program and if you put in the effort to try and remain sober, hopefully things will start improving both for yourself and, if applicable, your relationship. I know that I need to continue to work on my sobriety and my relationship, but I must say that both have significantly improved in the last 12 weeks. I wish the same for everybody here!

I have been sexually sober for a week now which is the longest for me in a very long time and I owe this to my joining this program and feeling more accountable and supported. I know it’s still very early in my recovery and I’m still having a lot of urges but it feels good. I have also noticed that have been more productive because I am not wasting all the time I had been in acting out. Thanks for being there.

One month sober today! The urges to act out have significantly reduced over the past week and it feels good to have the reduced urges, giving me hope for the future that with the continued work I'll get to that recovered state we're all striving for. Still an emotional wreck at times because of the guilt and shame and grieving the loss of my marriage, but I'm working with a therapist on navigating those times. Very grateful to have this group and the support of my family and friends.

Tomorrow is my day 40 of sobriety! I've made efforts to socialize with friends more and to keep focusing on finding ways to better myself. I've noticed several days in a row of having no urges. Doesn't mean the thought is there, especially during these winter days in New Hampshire and going through the process of divorce, but the thoughts have turned into a reflection moment where I go "in this situation, I would have acted out, but now I have no desire to do so." The realization of having no urges lately and not acting out is making me feel the freedom we've talked about.